“Work doesn’t define who you are, rather it gives you the means to explore who you are.”
I’ve been struggling the last few months with work, it’s not inspiring. When I wake up in the morning I have to force myself out of bed. I bark at my household if they attempt conversation. I argue with co-workers over trivial things, and am just a whiny little bitch when I am there. I’m a pretty straight forward and positive person, so to feel this way really bothers me. I speak with my friends at work and they always say ‘stick it out, it will get better’. And I love them for saying things to me to brighten my day…. I hope my goofing around and being silly helps them throughout their day as well.
But this isn’t for me. Being in this field, I only planned on working at my job for a year while I was a touring musician… it’s been FOUR YEARS now!! Where I am is not who I am. I am someone who needs to be out discovering the world, living as simple as possible, working for me and my family.
Jade and I have a plan in the next 13 months… Pay off ALL debt, save up, buy an RV and travel full-time living in said RV. Whether it’s parking outside my sister’s house for 6 months while we work menial jobs and save $$$ or are travelling across Canada/USA in the RV, that is where I WANT TO BE. It’s on our terms. Now… I have been offered several jobs in a variety of positions in the past from other companies, and yes they would pay more and I am sure their atmosphere is more positive than where I am right now. But… I can’t leave where I am. It’s better to stick it out and watch as things improve and leave on good terms. Plus, I don’t want to take on a new job, go through all of the training and then quit in 13 months when it’s my time to travel.
I want to be free, out exploring the world around me. I am so sick and tired of working to make someone else a lot of money and getting constantly shit on. I love my co-workers, my job isn’t horrible… It’s just not what I am supposed to be doing.
I am most happy when I am on the road or talking about hitting the road. My eyes sparkle and you can see/feel the excitement. I dream of convoys with friends, hiking in Colorado with my dog, and I get giddy hearing friends tell me of their spouse’s road trips and ending up on “The Price is Right”. (YAY)
I know everything will happen the way it’s supposed to, but can we fast-forward 13 months yet???
Who am I???? I am someone who is NOT settling. I am travel, I am adventure. I am….. Devon.